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Monday, August 30, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
11 weeks to go!
Yesterday we went for another baby check up and ultrasound and decided we would take the kids along. First of all, baby is still a BOY! That was one of the big questions! The kids loved seeing the baby, although most of it was confusing for them. They got to see his heart beat {and hear it}, his kidneys, his spine, and all the rest the good stuff. While the ultrasound tech was showing the kids the heart and kidneys Kyler was like "look the babys belly button" we all giggled and try to explain that the baby doesnt have one yet. {He didn't quite understand.}
Ultrasound looked good! The doc has been mostly concerned about my placenta lying on top of my bladder but it looks like it is slowly moving up, which is a good thing! She measured my amniotic fluid and it measured at 14cm, they like it at at least 10! So yay for drinking enough water! His heart is developing perfectly and he has a great heartbeat at 156 along with his kidneys and other organs!
I am still suffering horribly from acid reflux and the morning vomiting is killing me. I have been taking Pepcid AC for 2 weeks now {plus living off of tums} and it hasn't been helping much. We have decided to up that to 2 pills a day and see how that goes! I got my results back on my red blood cell count and I am anemic. No big just one more pill to remember to pop each morning! Also my hemoglobin A1C (a blood test that shows your average sugar levels over the last 90 days) has gone down to a 6.1 (3 months ago it was 7.1, 9 months ago it was 10.2). So in a nutshell we are getting my sugars under control for the most part. We aren't satisfied with that number but happy to see we have made progress. It is one thing to control sugar levels, but hard as sin when you are preggo.
The doctor {& I} are SO happy that all has gone well thus far! I would love to say that either of us feel at ease, but sadly the next 2 months is the hardest for me being pregnant. We will begin doing fetal monitoring in 2 weeks, starting at once a week for 2 weeks, then move to twice a week {unless we see a need to do it more}. I truly hope that the next 2 months fly by with ease and come November I will be holding my precious lil guy and taking him home!
Overall baby is doing great and doctor is still amazing! Oh, and the best part of the day.. Jaelin! This little girl cracks me up. After the ultrasound I had to wait for the Dr, so tony decided to take the kids to park (kids can only sit in a waiting room for SO long). When I got done they were waiting out in the lobby and Jaelin says (as she was trying to pull up my shirt) let me see where they cut you open to check on the baby. Tony & I couldn't quit laughing. I tried to explain they wont cut my belly until they are ready to actually take the baby out. {might I add the best perk of a c-section is that I LOVE being able to answer the kids truthfully when they ask me how the baby will come out}
Ultrasound looked good! The doc has been mostly concerned about my placenta lying on top of my bladder but it looks like it is slowly moving up, which is a good thing! She measured my amniotic fluid and it measured at 14cm, they like it at at least 10! So yay for drinking enough water! His heart is developing perfectly and he has a great heartbeat at 156 along with his kidneys and other organs!
I am still suffering horribly from acid reflux and the morning vomiting is killing me. I have been taking Pepcid AC for 2 weeks now {plus living off of tums} and it hasn't been helping much. We have decided to up that to 2 pills a day and see how that goes! I got my results back on my red blood cell count and I am anemic. No big just one more pill to remember to pop each morning! Also my hemoglobin A1C (a blood test that shows your average sugar levels over the last 90 days) has gone down to a 6.1 (3 months ago it was 7.1, 9 months ago it was 10.2). So in a nutshell we are getting my sugars under control for the most part. We aren't satisfied with that number but happy to see we have made progress. It is one thing to control sugar levels, but hard as sin when you are preggo.
The doctor {& I} are SO happy that all has gone well thus far! I would love to say that either of us feel at ease, but sadly the next 2 months is the hardest for me being pregnant. We will begin doing fetal monitoring in 2 weeks, starting at once a week for 2 weeks, then move to twice a week {unless we see a need to do it more}. I truly hope that the next 2 months fly by with ease and come November I will be holding my precious lil guy and taking him home!
Overall baby is doing great and doctor is still amazing! Oh, and the best part of the day.. Jaelin! This little girl cracks me up. After the ultrasound I had to wait for the Dr, so tony decided to take the kids to park (kids can only sit in a waiting room for SO long). When I got done they were waiting out in the lobby and Jaelin says (as she was trying to pull up my shirt) let me see where they cut you open to check on the baby. Tony & I couldn't quit laughing. I tried to explain they wont cut my belly until they are ready to actually take the baby out. {might I add the best perk of a c-section is that I LOVE being able to answer the kids truthfully when they ask me how the baby will come out}
Friday, August 20, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Love in life
I have mentioned before that this blog is my personal journal. This is by far the longest post I have and probably will write. I am writing this for my own mind and strength.
Thinking back over my life and the trials I have faced and overcome I often ponder on how or why my life has taken me on the path it has. I am 28. I have been through some tough trials in my life and at times I wonder if they will ever get easier.
Being pregnant is an amazing experience filled with happiness, love, passion and pain. It brings out emotions and trials unknown to man. It takes you from your highest highs to your lowest lows. No pregnancy is like the other and no outcome remains the same.
Being pregnant with our fourth child is like being pregnant with my first. I don't remember morning sickness, heartburn, acid reflux, contractions or lack of oxygen. The only thing I can truly remember about being pregnant is giving birth to the most amazing, beautiful boys and little girl.
On August 31st it will be 9 years since I laid in a hospital bed for the first time ready to bring a beautiful life into this world. To hold and love him for the rest of our lives. All you think about while pregnant is how you can teach your child to love, laugh and enjoy life. You ponder on his first smile, laugh, step, school and life. There is nothing more enjoyable then knowing that you will have the opportunity to raise a special gift from God.
However there is one thing you don't think about during pregnancy and that is lack of opportunity.
The first opportunity I had to bring life into this world never happened. My precious baby was taken from me before his first breath of air, first tear, first smile. There is not a day that goes by that my heart doesn't ache for my son in heaven. What I would have given to have a moment of life with him in this world. What I would give to hear his voice or see his eyes. As I lay in the hospital holding my lifeless son I ask why. What did we do so wrong for this life to be taken from us. And though I have never received that answer I believe everything in life happens for a reason regardless of how miserable or painful it may be.
Words can never express how lost I feel not having him here. I would give anything to be able to share the firsts' with my son. To whisper in his ear how much I love him. Instead I sit and ponder on what he has become. What God has planned for him.
There is no easier way to say this but I have been through hell. I have lived the nightmares of losing a child. However I found the strength to carry on. As the end of the month approaches and we mourn and celebrate the 9th birthday of our special angel in heaven I pray with all my powers and leave in Gods hands that he will watch over and give us the opportunity to raise our soon to be son.
To my special angel Brody Paul Worthen.
Words can not express the love I had for you during those 39 weeks of growing life. The bond I developed and the love I cherished. Every moment of our life as one is constantly a memory in my heart and mind. I think of your kicks, hiccups, and heartbeat. I remember your dads talks, laughs, screams and belly rubs. A piece of my heart shattered the day I lost you and the moment I told your dad you were gone. My memories of holding you for the first and last time and watching as your dad kissed you good bye. I felt as though my world had crumbled but the moment we laid you in the ground to rest I felt as though you would always be in my heart and be my guardian angel. Son there is nothing I want more then to love you as I have loved your brother and sister. I love and miss you more then words will ever explain.
Love Mom
Thinking back over my life and the trials I have faced and overcome I often ponder on how or why my life has taken me on the path it has. I am 28. I have been through some tough trials in my life and at times I wonder if they will ever get easier.
Being pregnant is an amazing experience filled with happiness, love, passion and pain. It brings out emotions and trials unknown to man. It takes you from your highest highs to your lowest lows. No pregnancy is like the other and no outcome remains the same.
Being pregnant with our fourth child is like being pregnant with my first. I don't remember morning sickness, heartburn, acid reflux, contractions or lack of oxygen. The only thing I can truly remember about being pregnant is giving birth to the most amazing, beautiful boys and little girl.
On August 31st it will be 9 years since I laid in a hospital bed for the first time ready to bring a beautiful life into this world. To hold and love him for the rest of our lives. All you think about while pregnant is how you can teach your child to love, laugh and enjoy life. You ponder on his first smile, laugh, step, school and life. There is nothing more enjoyable then knowing that you will have the opportunity to raise a special gift from God.
However there is one thing you don't think about during pregnancy and that is lack of opportunity.
The first opportunity I had to bring life into this world never happened. My precious baby was taken from me before his first breath of air, first tear, first smile. There is not a day that goes by that my heart doesn't ache for my son in heaven. What I would have given to have a moment of life with him in this world. What I would give to hear his voice or see his eyes. As I lay in the hospital holding my lifeless son I ask why. What did we do so wrong for this life to be taken from us. And though I have never received that answer I believe everything in life happens for a reason regardless of how miserable or painful it may be.
Words can never express how lost I feel not having him here. I would give anything to be able to share the firsts' with my son. To whisper in his ear how much I love him. Instead I sit and ponder on what he has become. What God has planned for him.
There is no easier way to say this but I have been through hell. I have lived the nightmares of losing a child. However I found the strength to carry on. As the end of the month approaches and we mourn and celebrate the 9th birthday of our special angel in heaven I pray with all my powers and leave in Gods hands that he will watch over and give us the opportunity to raise our soon to be son.
To my special angel Brody Paul Worthen.
Words can not express the love I had for you during those 39 weeks of growing life. The bond I developed and the love I cherished. Every moment of our life as one is constantly a memory in my heart and mind. I think of your kicks, hiccups, and heartbeat. I remember your dads talks, laughs, screams and belly rubs. A piece of my heart shattered the day I lost you and the moment I told your dad you were gone. My memories of holding you for the first and last time and watching as your dad kissed you good bye. I felt as though my world had crumbled but the moment we laid you in the ground to rest I felt as though you would always be in my heart and be my guardian angel. Son there is nothing I want more then to love you as I have loved your brother and sister. I love and miss you more then words will ever explain.
Love Mom
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Time to start shopping!
I have finally decided that it is time for me to start buying some things for this little guy. I have a fear of buying stuff and something happening to him and then being stuck with all this stuff, knowing this is and will be our last baby. Some might call it paranoid, I call it a reality I don't want to have to relive.
So here is the first big purchase...
I fell in love with this the first time I saw it. I got all of it in the picture (minus the lamp & mobile and crib/dresser of course) for $76.94 and that was with shipping! I can NOT wait to get it.
So one purchase down a few more to go!
So here is the first big purchase...
I fell in love with this the first time I saw it. I got all of it in the picture (minus the lamp & mobile and crib/dresser of course) for $76.94 and that was with shipping! I can NOT wait to get it.
So one purchase down a few more to go!
Monday, August 2, 2010
Jaelin goes to Kindergarten!
HOORAY!
Jaelin got her shots last week so today she is officially registered for Kindergarten. I was already leaked who her teacher was (by her teacher) but I hadn't told her yet. We received the letter from the school and Kyler took the honors of reading it to her. Saying she was EXCITED is an understatement. Her face lit up!
Jaelin will be beginning her school adventures with Mrs. Mickelson! I was praying that is who she would get, since Jaelin was already familiar with her. Mrs. Mickelson is an amazing teacher and I am truly blessed that she will be teaching Jaelin!
Now I am on the count down to 4 weeks. Jaelin has learned to identify and write numbers 1-10, knows all her colors and shapes, (even an oval), and my final goal is to get her to identify and write all of the abc's. She is doing very well at learning how to spell/write her last name, her phone number & address. My overall goal is to stay positive and hope she gets the hang of most of this by school time!
Jaelin got her shots last week so today she is officially registered for Kindergarten. I was already leaked who her teacher was (by her teacher) but I hadn't told her yet. We received the letter from the school and Kyler took the honors of reading it to her. Saying she was EXCITED is an understatement. Her face lit up!
Jaelin will be beginning her school adventures with Mrs. Mickelson! I was praying that is who she would get, since Jaelin was already familiar with her. Mrs. Mickelson is an amazing teacher and I am truly blessed that she will be teaching Jaelin!
Now I am on the count down to 4 weeks. Jaelin has learned to identify and write numbers 1-10, knows all her colors and shapes, (even an oval), and my final goal is to get her to identify and write all of the abc's. She is doing very well at learning how to spell/write her last name, her phone number & address. My overall goal is to stay positive and hope she gets the hang of most of this by school time!
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